I feel like my updates have been slightly sporadic recently, and not very representative of my season. I most recently posted my Halfway to Marathon update, which I considered an accurate portrayal at the time of writing. But the thing is, I wrote it a week or so before it published, and a lot has happened since then. Let’s have a quick rundown of what’s been going on:
- I skipped interval training two weeks in a row (oops)
- I did my peak training run- the 20 miler (yay!)
- I hurt my knee during the 20 miler (boo!)
- I got put on a week of rest from running (ouch)
- I got a bit out of sorts and started doubting myself (eugh)
I have to admit that I’ve been feeling really weary the past few weeks, and the majority of that has come from self-doubt and second guessing myself. In her most recent episode of Ask Lauren Fleshman, my favourite runner talked about the value of having a coach. To be clear, I do not have a coach. But what Lauren said really resonated with me; it takes all the guesswork out of training. You can often find yourself halfway through a training session still wondering if you’re doing the right thing, hitting the right paces, focusing on the right aspect of your running in that moment. I think that’s been the trickiest thing for me this season so far-never quite being sure that I’m doing the right thing.
And then, there’s the inevitable self-doubt, and not just the self doubt of Am I really a marathoner? but more the objective self-doubt of My body doesn’t seem capable of this. When combined with injury and several niggles, as well as the opinions of well-meaning friends, family and colleagues, it can all be a bit overwhelming.
What I’m trying to focus on at the moment is listening to runners who are more experienced than myself. I’m trying not to panic, and I’ll be getting myself to a doctor as quickly as possible just to make sure I’m not in any serious danger with my knee. On a more positive note, I managed to go for a gentle 3-mile run today without any pain, and I now have a plan for my last three weeks leading up to the marathon, which involves a very slight increase in mileage next week before a two week taper.
Aside from that, I’ll be taking a self-care weekend, and getting myself back to top shape for the weeks ahead.
Do you train with a coach? If not, how do you take the guesswork out of training?
Lots of love,