One of my favourite all-time Youtubers Josie Mai always talks about The Fight for Balance. I feel like my life has been slightly unbalanced at the moment. This blog helped me realise this: I’ve written exclusively about running for the past several weeks, even though the title, tagline and URL clearly suggests I’m not solely about that. But running really has been the most single-most dominant of my life for the past few months. It’s because things have been tough recently, and I often feel the need to pound the pavements.
I’ve started getting pissed off the past few days. It’s not even that I’m sick of the act of running. It’s just that when I’m not running, I’m reading or talking about it. I’m sick of it. I’ve made a conscious effort to stop chewing people’s ears off about my obsession, but the people around me know how much it matters to me and either ask in order to make conversation or to seek my advice. Don’t get me wrong- it’s great that others are taking/feigning an interest in what I do, and I’m flattered that someone would come to me for advice about their fitness. It’s just that I don’t want to get so fucking sick of all this chat that I stop doing the running bit altogether.
Consequently I’m trying to balance out my life slightly.
I’m making an effort to be more sociable, especially at evenings and weekends. I am typically the kind of person who needs to “brain dump” after a day at the office, which either means exercising (alone) or collapsing onto the sofa in front of whatever looks half decent on Netflix. However I keep reminding myself that human interaction is good, and I’m trying. I may be coming up short, but at least I’m trying. I joined a social running group, and I’ve started working out in the mornings so I can make more time to see people.
I’m switching up my exercise routine. I actually still love running. It switches my brain off in a way very little else can. However, I’m making an effort to switch it up a bit. I’m #lifting and I’ll be trying a Barre Core class next week.
I’m making sure I dedicate myself to my work. I’m currently the only member of my team in the London office, which is tough for me since (despite my introverted tendencies) I like to be around people. I solve the toughest issues by thinking out loud, and often come up with solutions when chatting it out over a cup of tea with a colleague. As a result of my office-loner status, my motivation has been flagging this week. But I’m making my best effort to keep going, and make sure I do my job to the best of my abilities. I wouldn’t want to get my paycheck at the end of the month and feel like I hadn’t earned it.
I’m taking more time to do nothing. I tend to keep myself busy when I’m feeling a bit down, since I don’t want my mind to wander to not-so-nice places. But all that busyness is exhausting, and consequently I’m trying to switch off slightly with TV, reading, or 10 minutes of Candy Crush. I also treated myself to a mindfulness journal (although it doesn’t call itself that), to learn to let my thoughts wonder and process negative emotions.
I’m practicing gratitude. I really try to do this on a daily basis, although truthfully speaking that’s not always the case. I’ve been shifting my focus recently; instead of general gratitude in the vein of: I’m grateful that I have a job and a flat, I’m grateful for that lovely cup of coffee, I’ve been trying to make sure the people in my life know that I appreciate them. Whether that’s cooking dinner for a friend or writing to my grandparents, it’s very important to me.
This post has been a bit of a “brain dump”. I’m trying to ensure that fitness is something that enhances other aspects of my life, rather than dominating it.
Do you struggle to find balance? Do you ever get entirely sick of your fitness routine? How do you cope with it?